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"Each of us must come to care about everyone else's children. We must recognize that the well being of our own children is intimately linked to the well being of all other people's children. After all, when one of our children needs life-saving surgery, someone else's child will perform it. When one of our children is harmed by violence, someone else's child will commit it. The good life for our own children can be secured only if it is also secured for all other people's children. But to work for the well being of all children is not just a practical matter-- it is also right!" - Lilian G. Katz, Phd.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Sometimes it isn't worth the pain

So, the Carpal Tunnel Release was successful.  There is no more numbness in my hand.  I would be excited about this news, but in trade I got more pain than I had before.  I start hand therapy next week, which might help the fact that my hand is continually swollen and I am in a lot of pain.  I am losing my fine motor skills, including the ability to write, open bottles, and carry things.  I drop things.  I drop things constantly.
I am scared.  I need my hands.  I need to be able to type and to manipulate a mouse.  I know I can adapt, but I need to work and make money to support my children.  Chris and I have plans that I am not willing to put on hold, including buying a house, having a child, getting married, that depend on my working as well as being healthy.

We will survive, and we will do it in still.  I am just in a lot of pain as I push myself to do what is needed to be done.  One day at a time is my mantra.