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Monday, June 11, 2007

The fine art of not working

Tomorrow we drive to Las Vegas for a night. Now, you might be thinking "Cool", or "Lucky Her" or many other things, but those who know me will be going "Oh Shit!".

Konal has anxiety on top of many other things, and the prospect of a trip is enough to put the house on lockdown and him near hospitalized. He is doing OK right now, although his staff member has gone home for that day and it is only a little after 3.

Now, as a grown woman I don't do trips well. I have a lot to do, and all I want to do at the moment is sleep the sleep of the damned.

List of things to do?

  • Laundry
Laundry is ever-present and will always be my Achilles' heel. Konal's health issues give me twice the normal amount to do. Right now, we are out of towels. Aidan just took a shower and dried off with a hand towel.

  • Pick up Living Room
That doesn't sound so bad. hmmm, I wonder if a picture would help here:

Sorry about the quality- was too lazy to get the camera and used the web cam. But, you get the idea. Konal is actively working to make it worse. Yes, those are bras. See below.

  • Pack
I think that one is self-explanatory

  • Make CDs for Trip
Priorities are important, eh?

  • Finish writing paper that was due 5 weeks ago
That would be what I should be doing at this very second. It will be done by this evening. My will is strong, and I know what I want to say (Always important)
Unfortunately, deadlines and me don't mix well, and I have had a lot of distractions- like major medical events, a child who is want to injure me and sometimes succeeds and severe depression about the previously mentioned issues. The most disruptive factor is the last one. I would not stress about this, but it is affecting someone else's grade as well. She has a much more normal life than mine... I envy her this. This would be the reason I hate having partners.
Las Vegas will be fun. Konal does much better once we leave, and I just got a phone call that his dad is on the way to help him. I just need to get my fat butt in gear. The Monster did not motivate me as usual.

I am still fighting a sinking sense of self-worth from a shopping trip on Saturday. I have gone from a 12/14 to an 18/20 in about 6 months. I just spent $400 at Lane Bryant on Saturday because I had no clothes that fit me. I love the clothes- hate my body. The bras are from the shopping trip- but I did get everything else put away.

Off to make a try at the list. Wish me luck...