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"Each of us must come to care about everyone else's children. We must recognize that the well being of our own children is intimately linked to the well being of all other people's children. After all, when one of our children needs life-saving surgery, someone else's child will perform it. When one of our children is harmed by violence, someone else's child will commit it. The good life for our own children can be secured only if it is also secured for all other people's children. But to work for the well being of all children is not just a practical matter-- it is also right!" - Lilian G. Katz, Phd.

Sunday, May 14, 2006

It finally happened

I am now an official college graduate. ASU West has admitted me and I start in the fall. It was exciting and was really the culmination of several years of perservance and hard work. I think I was more excited about this than I will be about my Bachelors.

I was dissapointed and saddened that my brother and father did not come to see me graduate. I keep trying to rationalize it, but the bottom line is that it did hurt. I will do my usual and not really talk about it, especially not with them. I want to keep a relationship with both of them so bad, that I frequently ignore things that hurt my feelings in order to perserve what little I have of them. I know they probably both have excellent reasons why they didn't go, and I will always love them, but it feels a bit better to admit to my true feelings.

It was the same thing with my celebration Saturday night. I prepared for a large crowd. I invited everyone I knew, and asked people to spread the word. 12 people came in total- including my children, mother and boyfriend. I adore the people that came- they are some of the closest people in my life. I still had trouble keeping up the "happy". I felt stood up and ignored by the rest of the world.

I have a lot of leftover food that serves to remind me of this, so if you are hungry....

I come away from this a little older, a little wiser, and a little more in touch with who I am. I still need to work on being proud of myself, and not depending on others to give me that support in my endeavors. I have a larger network of friends and loved ones that were with me in spirit, and that counts too.... Posted by Picasa