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"Each of us must come to care about everyone else's children. We must recognize that the well being of our own children is intimately linked to the well being of all other people's children. After all, when one of our children needs life-saving surgery, someone else's child will perform it. When one of our children is harmed by violence, someone else's child will commit it. The good life for our own children can be secured only if it is also secured for all other people's children. But to work for the well being of all children is not just a practical matter-- it is also right!" - Lilian G. Katz, Phd.

Saturday, February 4, 2006

With sadness in my heart

What is it about death? Is it that I really have no firm beliefs, or that I just can't grasp that a person will not be there anymore? It has been a heck of a week. I am very stressed, and my money situation is so tight, I am praying that my contract check will arrive soon. It really sucks to work but not get paid until two or three months later.

Joyce, a dear, dear friend, passed away unexpectedly on Tuesday. I have known her since 1998 and while she is "just" an online friend, she is someone I heard from every day in the past year. The Gabbies (the group of moms that have stayed together on a mailing list since 98) are devastated. I am devastated.

Joyce was a survivor. She has made it through all the tough times that life threw at her, and then some. We didn't agree on everything, and had very different views of the world, but that is part of what makes life fun. I am working on a memorial project in cross stitch for her. It is not much, but it gives me the feeling of doing something.

Money problems or not, I was 2 seconds from hopping a red-eye to Baltimore (it would have been only $200) to attend the funeral- which is today. Steve then called and is sick and I had to take the boys for the weekend. I know I will be there in spirit, but I wanted the closure of being there in person. I did not have the pleasure of attending the gabby reunion in '04 (I had taken a sabbatical from the group for many reasons). I will always regret that.

In other news, Konal is proceeding nicely on weaning him off his meds. He is actually doing better this week than he has in a long time. The abilify is almost done, then we will start on the Trileptal. The only thing that worries me is that we have had some weird incidents in the last couple of days that may be a sign of the psychosis coming back. So far they have been harmless, so it is just wait and see at this point.

The school has agreed to evaluate him for special education. It is still a wait and see proposition. I am hoping they help him- I hate seeing his mind go to waste.

School progresses for me. We are doing a create-a-society project in Sociology and will have a test in a week for Anatomy. We dissected a rat yesterday, which I found rather fun.

Time to face the mess in my house....