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"Each of us must come to care about everyone else's children. We must recognize that the well being of our own children is intimately linked to the well being of all other people's children. After all, when one of our children needs life-saving surgery, someone else's child will perform it. When one of our children is harmed by violence, someone else's child will commit it. The good life for our own children can be secured only if it is also secured for all other people's children. But to work for the well being of all children is not just a practical matter-- it is also right!" - Lilian G. Katz, Phd.

Monday, March 28, 2005

Long Term Plans

Doubt. It is a horrible, insidious thing that creeps into the heart and mind when you least expect it. Suddenly, out of the blue, I had an old dream rekindled. I am willing to pursue this dream, but it might mean sacrificing another dream I have worked so hard on. I am not sure where to go. I want to move from Phoenix and get away from the city. I also want my degree, but I also lean towards entrepreneurship and have the tool kit to pursue it.

I have too many choices in life. My children come first, but after them, then what? I may not be able to get a "real job" until Konal gets better, but is there something I can do until then?

And what if I just want to be a housewife and mother? There are many times I long for that too. Being able to concentrate fully on the welfare of my family and make sure their needs get met. To do that, however, would require a provider- the husband part of the equation- who is able to support a family. At my age, those seem to be in short supply, especially for a ready made family.

I never give up hope, but I am a planner. At this point, I am not sure what to plan for.

Maybe Katie Lyrics

CHORUS (x2):
What's so maybe about
What's so maybe about
What's so maybe about Katie?

What's the use in hesitating?
Can't you see that Katie's waiting?
Just because her youth is fading
Doesn't mean that she's not worth dating


I don't know what the fuss is all about
Just take it slow
It's not like you can't live without her
To and fro
If you've got a shred of doubt then it's not worth it


Can't you see her with her arms wide open
She's everything that you've been hoping for
Forever's not so long, stop moping
She's got a daughter and you're just not coping.

Do you know everyone you ever swore you'd love for life
I don't know them anymore
I know their names
I'd recognize them on the street and I don't love them

By the Bare Naked Ladies