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"Each of us must come to care about everyone else's children. We must recognize that the well being of our own children is intimately linked to the well being of all other people's children. After all, when one of our children needs life-saving surgery, someone else's child will perform it. When one of our children is harmed by violence, someone else's child will commit it. The good life for our own children can be secured only if it is also secured for all other people's children. But to work for the well being of all children is not just a practical matter-- it is also right!" - Lilian G. Katz, Phd.

Monday, October 18, 2004

And it goes on...

So, now I have my first major stressor off my chest. Now I need to figure out what else is stressing me out. I have a small books worth of material:
  1. Money
  2. Time
  3. My ex-husband
  4. My son's health problems
  5. My son's behavioral problems
  6. Sleep
  7. My Job
  8. My Boss
  9. School- especially that English Paper I should be writing right now.

Money is a sticky one. I chose to quit a decent job and go back to school. I thought I did it responsibly. I lined up resources to carry me through until I found another job. I minimized expenses and got my bills paid down.

HA! I was an idiot. First, my ex ended up in an acute care mental health facility and I did not get any child support in August (my first month jobless). The financial aid for school and the 403b cash out did not come in. I am surviving hand to mouth. I did some contract work and that money still has not come in. I am trying to survive on 25 hours a week at Target for pity's sake.

Aidan's dance cost $120 a month, then there is my car payment, my phone, and my credit cards. I know it will all work out, but meanwhile, my stomach rolls everytime I think about money. I am stressed out, so I keep spending money on stupid things that I can't afford. Now I have bounced checks and unpaid bills.

I listed time as next, and for good reason. It is a concurrent theme through all of my issues. There is not enough time in the day for everything I need to do. Period. End of story. My house is trashed, my homework undone, my budget and bills neglected. Because I am fairly unstable right now, I am making poor choices in how to use my time. I play an inordinate amount of computer games at the moment. I watch TV. I read recreational books. I go and spend 9 hours at the pub and other related activities. I spend a lot of time on the CV Forum.

I will post more later. The boys are here and it is time for our nightly rounds of activities.